i don't think i've ever wanted anything more than i wanted this.
i've been staring into gail's eyes for what seems like hours now. her eyes are the perfect colour. that beautiful sea colour, a mixture of greens, blues and browns. observing the rest of her soft, pretty face makes me realise how lucky i am to have got this far. yet, it isn't far enough.
her lips are of a pale pink colour, and they look so soft and tender. and to think, i'd almost got to touching them with my own lips. what i wouldn't give to have one more chance. one more shot at doing this, but doing it properly this time..
i don't think he remembers. silly ziek, you never were one for remembering things. sitting here with you, under the very same tree...
you had been chasing me, i was panting and breathing heavily. i stopped under the tree to catch my breath and plopped on the ground, leaves flying in every direction. you snuck up behind me, around the other side of the tree trunk. you were hugging it, trying to be stealthy, but i heard the crunching of the leaves on the ground..
as silly as this sounds, i feel as if this is all deja-vu or something, like this has already happened.
and i'm not sure what actually went wrong though. we were so close to kissing, but we both just looked away, and she looked at me with this nervous smile, as if she was shy.
so what went wrong? we had been laughing about something, and she happened to mention that she was ticklish, so of course, i tickled her sides and she started rolling around giggling. when she tickled me back, i must admit i was surprised and i quite liked it. it was like subtle flirting. and i'm pretty ticklish, too. so we start rolling around in the grass together, and she ends up on top of me. that was when i noticed just how beautifully stunning she was, as we stared into each other's eyes, a grin on both of our faces.
that was also when i realised she was the one for me.
i bit my lip in anticipation, waiting, staring, willing you to sit up and kiss me. you pulled yourself up and rested on your elbows, studying me. i was nervous, under your scrutinizing eye, but i studied you in turn. your forever tousled blonde hair (which is strange, i don't usually like blonde boys, but you are my exception.) and your emerald green eyes that reflected the leaves on the ground...
crunch, crunch, crunch, i can still hear the leaves beneath your tiny feet. i closed my eyes and pretended not to notice you. you came up behind me and wrapped your arms around my waist. "you're it!" i squealed and giggled and chased you, arms flailing. all of a sudden my feet went flying out beneath me, and i fell on my face.
you kept running and laughing, and stopped to look for me and saw my crying and holding my knee. you ran back as fast as you could and held my hand in yours while i cried. you pulled me into a hug and held me there until my sobbing subsided. you pulled away slowly, and i pulled you back, resting my forehead against yours. we just stayed like that for goodness knows how long, staring into each other's eyes.
if the wind was blowing, we would have kissed.
oh gail, if only you knew how much i wanted to kiss you right then. the moment you stared into my eyes with that cheeky grin on your face, i knew i'd fallen for you. and i was so desperate to kiss you right then.
i remember rolling over onto my side, so you rolled off of me and lay next to me. you closed your eyes and lay there in the summer sun, as a smile spread across your face, and you whispered ''this is the life..'' quietly and sweetly. you opened one eye questioningly, wondering why i was staring at you. and if you had actually asked me, i wouldn't have known how to reply. there are too many words to describe how beautiful you are, and how peaceful you looked, and how much i wanted to tell you that this is indeed the life.
i leaned on my left arm, still staring intently at your pale face. you half sat up almost immediately after, and turned to stare right back at me. i leaned forward to whipser something in your ear, but i never got that far. i stopped just over halfway, inches away from your face, and tried to take in every inch of it. we lay, for a countless number of minutes, just watching one another.
and now i know. if the wind was blowing, we would have kissed.